Most of us segment our plans-New Year's resolutions, spring cleaning, etc. I tend to do that myself! The last 18 months have been a long string of fresh starts for me. Every day almost! And that is ok as long as we keep picking up and trying to move forward in some way. The problem arises when we get "stuck" whether it be our mood, our job, our health... It is so much easier to stay in our "bubble", I am fat and always have been so I guess I will just accept it! I want to try a new job but I am good at this one so I better just stay put. I never have been a good housekeeper but everyone is used to it so Oh well!
Well, I have had several eye-opening events this past couple of months that have helped nudge me out of my bubble and into that scary big world of the unknown! It IS scary, yet what new thing isn't?
First came the health issues. Another heart procedure. Yikes! This one knocked me for a loop, not one of those you can sprint out of the operating room and back into life feeling like nothing happened. Some might say I am a stubborn woman, I wouldn't say stubborn, just determined, and when my health doesn't let me do what I feel I need to do then I get a tad bit frustrated. So how to fix it? Pay more attention to MY HEALTH. Yes, MY health. Ok, that means that Shana MUST take time to do some things for herself such as, going for walks, jogs, etc and maybe eating healthier and getting some sleep! And so enters the second big change for me~I LOVE my job! I LOVE the family I work with and the child I care for, however, driving 120 miles a day and working 12 hours a day is not beneficial to MY family and children. Thus, another new start! I am terribly excited to start my new job, make new friends, expand my skills! I will be home in time for dinner every night and see my boys off to school every morning!
As we move through the grieving process we come up against so very many new and unpleasant (at best) feelings to deal with. All we can do is try to move forward and take everyday as it comes. We might slip back sometimes but just know that you are not alone, and we all take this journey at our own pace. Someday, the sun is going to shine a little bit brighter and we will smile with true joy through the pain. There will ALWAYS be a hole in our hearts, an empty space in our lives, but new and different things will come and help, not to fill the hole, but to surround it with things that help us move on and live life again as much as we can. It might feel uncomfortable at first, but like all change, it takes time to find a "new normal". Submerge yourself in friends and family and learn to live again, the way our angels would want us to.
Well, I have had several eye-opening events this past couple of months that have helped nudge me out of my bubble and into that scary big world of the unknown! It IS scary, yet what new thing isn't?
First came the health issues. Another heart procedure. Yikes! This one knocked me for a loop, not one of those you can sprint out of the operating room and back into life feeling like nothing happened. Some might say I am a stubborn woman, I wouldn't say stubborn, just determined, and when my health doesn't let me do what I feel I need to do then I get a tad bit frustrated. So how to fix it? Pay more attention to MY HEALTH. Yes, MY health. Ok, that means that Shana MUST take time to do some things for herself such as, going for walks, jogs, etc and maybe eating healthier and getting some sleep! And so enters the second big change for me~I LOVE my job! I LOVE the family I work with and the child I care for, however, driving 120 miles a day and working 12 hours a day is not beneficial to MY family and children. Thus, another new start! I am terribly excited to start my new job, make new friends, expand my skills! I will be home in time for dinner every night and see my boys off to school every morning!
As we move through the grieving process we come up against so very many new and unpleasant (at best) feelings to deal with. All we can do is try to move forward and take everyday as it comes. We might slip back sometimes but just know that you are not alone, and we all take this journey at our own pace. Someday, the sun is going to shine a little bit brighter and we will smile with true joy through the pain. There will ALWAYS be a hole in our hearts, an empty space in our lives, but new and different things will come and help, not to fill the hole, but to surround it with things that help us move on and live life again as much as we can. It might feel uncomfortable at first, but like all change, it takes time to find a "new normal". Submerge yourself in friends and family and learn to live again, the way our angels would want us to.
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