Here it is, another spring. A time when we should be joyous in the new beginning and looking forward to summertime fun. Instead, my heart is aching for my precious angel, and for all of the other families we have helped this year who I know are feeling the same way. I know that our children are so very happy where they are. Happier than they would ever be here, but it doesn't take the pain away. I wish it did. It is exhausting to have this emotional ache all the time.
Today we bought another urn for a beautiful little angel who would have been so very loved if she could have stayed here with her twin sister. I felt a fresh stab of pain as I ordered that urn, even though I know that on some days it will bring comfort to her family to know that she is healthy and happy in heaven, right now they are going through those initial feelings of unbearable pain and there is nothing I can do that will ease that for them.
I suppose that all I can do is keep doing what I have been and try to be there when they need a shoulder to cry on, and we can cry together for what could have, what SHOULD have been with our beautiful children.
Mason, I love and miss you so very much every single day. Please hug all of your new friends that have joined you from their mommys and daddies because we can't reach you anymore. We are all down here looking forward to the day that you will meet us and show us the beautiful places you have discovered up there in heaven.
Be good my sweet boy. XOXO Nana